So, now, some people are doing what they were against and I'm not involved, in a certain way.

Fact.

We don't know what the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" will be, but I'd sure be sad to assume a no without knowing.

Are people fumbling with information like maybe I'm just not a definite?

I have too much flawed pressure via being monitored in private. I feel dysfunctional on a basic level and freak out about little worries alone.

They are always pressuring me with funny moments etc.

I don't think anyone gives a care, really, about fixing this.

So, if someone can stoop to mess with someone like me, racism, maybe they'll talk to you, too, then?  This is your chance?