Saturday, December 31, 2022

They just keep making problems bottom line.

Since they were at me at home and I showed physical anger in private, they think they can do anything because it was Christmas Eve.

They keep seeming to affect me physically by how they startle me loading the page and staring me down at length. You were not invited to this.

Tuesday, December 27, 2022

All this abuse "not working out," think you're just a waste of my life saying I'm in trouble?

 They just don't have it together and are on a roll. They think they're all that. I'm sick of their ego and positive self esteem.

They are hyperactive and spastic and brainless and haphazard! and no one gives a fuck like the police.  Want to call me crazy now?

Saturday, December 24, 2022

Problem

They are acting like a special feeling is something else like I’m an animal like someone who gets too much attention.

 They won't stop ruining mty life!

Wednesday, December 21, 2022

Thursday, December 15, 2022

So, like anyone, they are just hurting me and threaten to ruin it for me, the lady.

It seems this suffering is from the Oscars.

Well Well Well

The people in charge of monitoring me in private are displaying a "hissy fit" over inconvenient issues I have?

They won't stop just pestering me to test me if I feel upset or a curse word comes to mind, etc.

The people monitoring me in private keep interrupting me now if I try to feel affection, seems like almost every time mostly...

They make little noises around my apartment home etc.

Wednesday, December 14, 2022

Some things aren't really turning out and they say it is but I say it actually will or should in my life.

So, it isn't all friendly nor all okay.

I come back and find something wrong.

If I think of something, I get in trouble for it, like oh maybe I need to fix my money to be happy, like I already ran into trouble.

Tuesday, December 13, 2022

Looks like they're just gonna keep bothering me critically without relief.

They have people from my past involved from afar who pretend not to be that way.

I think they are just being mean to me for making a section about the lady on my blog.

Monday, December 12, 2022

Sometimes, they are too uptight and it stresses me out... like in ways you're not supposed to be...

The people monitoring me in private think it's right to give me a disadvantage, that what I post and what I think about it in private can be cause to go against me in big ways.  They are cutting, just in case.

Sunday, December 11, 2022

My day is full of emotional downgrades from all I accumulated or earned from what I had before.

Oh, so just in case as long as "we" got the lady stimulated and admit I'm shit to her? according to you.

Sometimes, I hear that the lady turns me down for something I did in attempts to alleviate suffering of no social activity, by saying what happens with her to me.

Saturday, December 10, 2022

They keep trying to make me feel awkward if I ever felt that way in public.

They even say it's the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, like they're perfect.

 They keep acting goofy all the time interrupting me.

For instance, I was trying to enjoy my early morning, but the people monitoring me in private kept acting a certain way...

Thursday, December 8, 2022

 The people monitoring me in private are unclear, too.

Why are the people monitoring me in private bargaining with bad people about me?

Tuesday, December 6, 2022

The people monitoring me in private keep going with whatever any random person says the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with says.

Monday, December 5, 2022

"On Target"

The secret topic of my cousin is fine by me, but it’s not something about problems for me now and then something worse because I said it.

Thursday, December 1, 2022

So, the other person claims to be in the right and I don’t get it anyway in this and it’s not important, to them and according to them?

People won't leave the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with alone, in a certain way ... It's like it can't work out for me. They're just a problem that can't be fixed that seem to be melting away gradually.

They notice I’m upset but civil and think it’s not time to move on. I’m just gonna get peppy and work out for them again by functioning in “the world of work.”

It's like they're waiting for me to post about and linger on it, which me disagreeing and not really feeling so happy or functioning emotionally is a problem because I feel on top.

A new thing that got its start awhile ago is that the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with it supposed to be mean to me.

It's supposed to be a joke if she "comes out" soon, in general, for other impatient, inquisitive parties.

It's like I'm a book "on hold" at the library that may or may not ever be checked out. That's the new way of life for me now. I'm not a book at the bookstore that gets put on a shelf of someone to be read at any time, but I am in the way I am not. I live at a library, and my life with anyone is just short and trashy now, while others can get a chance like I'm tested not to be able to get, like I'm not a good service as a book to deserve to be "checked out."

They keep getting away with thinking they are in the mindset that I gave them attention by complaining.

They just keep making my "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with a Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe seem like something I don't deserve more and more.

They've treated me like trash since my parents died, things my parents would never do.

So, if they keep finding problems, they bother me about it, like it was something they promised they would not exceed. They're not dumb, they know they just "decide" to be mean to me and are just a problem, can't fix it.

I was hoping if I did what they wanted, they'd start to leave me alone, but I also decided they weren't supposed to discipline me fooling around and have nothing to offer. They are just a waste of my time, if they are gonna use gay abandon when things are going good and they have plans already to ruin my life and like I did something wrong. The thing is I don't need them to even tell me what I already do, be good and not really be so bad. They keep acting like anything I am is from them, but they have nothing to offer, in a way.

What a joke. They keep bothering me and I'm on pills that make me tired. They say I'm not amazing and hurt me. I'm able to get off the pills gradually maybe. They think they are just following everyone else, but everyone else is "following" them.

They say something mean without words maybe and deny they are a problem.

No one cares about them, you can't trust them to do nice things.

They just always find a problem. They think they are copying Ellen DeGeneres.

Monday, November 28, 2022

I’m sick of sitting here sometimes hearing people outside. They are always giving nasty messages to me. I wanted to stay here, as anywhere may do this, but I dunno, this can’t be a good choice. I think I want to move to a different apartment for fun anyway. It may be a lot, but I need more room, though I didn’t get an answer about budget apartments in the mail as I was supposed to.

I notice I keep having to feel around problems to try to elevate myself to better feelings, and no I don’t need to listen to these other ^pathetic^ people. It looks like I’m just being hurt if the people in charge of monitoring me in private don’t like what I think, even if for myself.

I thought of a funny joke that was not meant to be taken in harm but involved something about harm someone is a "broken record" about.

Wednesday, November 23, 2022

The people in charge of the group homes I was in acted brutal to me like I did something wrong, in East Cleveland.

What?

I don’t know if my dad secretly started something I haven’t been made clear about, but I was not here to focus on like I have a behavior problem, sounds racist to me.

Tuesday, November 22, 2022

A big problem, unfortunately, is African-American attacks on me in Cleveland.

This is not the answer for my life.

No one thinks I should be comfortable.

They're just getting worse since other things seem to be getting better.

They keep ruining my life and keep getting at me, for my thoughts and then sometimes if I have some reaction physically and then hold onto it.  They are immature and judge me.  Everyone keeps seeing me in some position and says I'm nothing.  Then, they say they will take the Late Baby Boomer from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" away and ruin her.  I was the one being hurt and pursued like a vicious, savage animal.

Monday, November 14, 2022

Being with whoever I'm with, either people involved monitoring me in private or people that abuse them from Cleveland ... sucks. 

Friday, November 11, 2022

The people of the Cleveland area today claimed someone said Ellen DeGeneres said, for whatever reason, that my younger brother is tortured by all of people eating meat.

Wednesday, November 9, 2022

Do you agree with being unyielding and pretending it's okay to treat me like this, like it means something that's okay and matters?  ...and I know the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with supposedly knows the truth hurts, but this is quite a spectacle, thinking the same thing applies to how everyone treats me in their own way.  Also, I take care of myself, that's one thing for sure and no one had to tell me to do it individually.

Friday, November 4, 2022

What did Johnny Depp unleash?

What you did to make it hard for the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with doesn't matter, and that doesn't make me mad at her but in a scary/dangerous situation, as she supposedly turned on me but maybe not really so she still gets benefits and not me.

They said they ruined the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with forever, going ghey with reasons to ruin her bodily functions by losing some rest one night...

These people are not invited into my life or that of the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

The people monitoring me in private keep making her seem like the one who's really being hurt or maybe is too and now like I can't feel her because of what those people did. I know Ellen DeGeneres wanted to prevent these things, but the people monitoring me in private just let it happen, how "trashy."

Supposedly a kind of people in Cleveland ruined how the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with feels physically-emotionally.

They said I did something, but "big whoop" and I don't believe I did.

Thursday, November 3, 2022

So, now, some people are doing what they were against and I'm not involved, in a certain way.

Fact.

We don't know what the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" will be, but I'd sure be sad to assume a no without knowing.

Are people fumbling with information like maybe I'm just not a definite?

I have too much flawed pressure via being monitored in private. I feel dysfunctional on a basic level and freak out about little worries alone.

They are always pressuring me with funny moments etc.

I don't think anyone gives a care, really, about fixing this.

So, if someone can stoop to mess with someone like me, racism, maybe they'll talk to you, too, then?  This is your chance?

Wednesday, November 2, 2022

I see more and more problems are being caused.

I'm tired of cars going by like I'm "screwed" and they're "all that."

It's so annoying to have them watch me and suggest I have no future, like I would without them.

The people monitoring me in private are focusing on controlling or ruining my "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with a Late Baby Boomer lady from "Europe."

I posted some things without saying who, and they made a big deal just because I spent a lot of time on or said a lot about it.

People are saying someone is sending "stupid" messages.

They keep giving me problems, making them up when I think I've conquered, and ruining a "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with a Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe.  Nothing has to be, they just make it up.

It's clear the people monitoring me in private / my parents have been ruining my life.

The people monitoring me in private keep acting mean.

It's like I don't matter anymore and it's not my fault.

They are acting like I'm bad to be upset about how people are being mean to me, some have to and some don't maybe.

The people monitoring me in private said my life would not changed from this and/but in a bad way.  I've been really miserable since 2005/2006.

The people monitoring me in private keep acting like I "did something" and am in trouble, just for my feelings.

The people monitoring me in private keep telling me I'm bad and being mean to me, as they please without consequence, like they have to do it and are already set.

Tuesday, November 1, 2022

The people monitoring me in private and Cleveland are ruining the image that I'm an adult.