I’m sick of sitting here sometimes hearing people outside. They are always giving nasty messages to me. I wanted to stay here, as anywhere may do this, but I dunno, this can’t be a good choice. I think I want to move to a different apartment for fun anyway. It may be a lot, but I need more room, though I didn’t get an answer about budget apartments in the mail as I was supposed to.

I notice I keep having to feel around problems to try to elevate myself to better feelings, and no I don’t need to listen to these other ^pathetic^ people. It looks like I’m just being hurt if the people in charge of monitoring me in private don’t like what I think, even if for myself.